If you want to find the truth... you have to admit to all your lies.
I lie. A lot.
I lie to myself, more than anything. And on days like today... I feel like I just cant trust what I think or feel. On days like this.. I rely on other people to tell me I'm ok. Which can be so very dangerous... because people are human... and say things without thinking... and.... well, yeah... you shouldn't need to rely on someone else to feel like you're ok.
The truth is: I dont feel ok.
I feel like I'm hanging onto a very very thin thread... and I'm not quite sure for how much longer I can "hang on".
The list of things on my shoulders is probably not that unmanageable.. but the combination of everything feels....overwhelming.
So, without spilling too much of the grisly details... I just have to be honest and say... No.. I am not okay.
Aside: Thank you Jenny Lawson for making it ok to not be ok. Much love for this video. xx
Ciao for now.